Recovery, aka upswing! LOL

Few days back, i was listening 2 lite fm in d morning, n d topic 4 d day is "Is it easy 2 4giv n 4get?" ei.. sounds farmiliar, coz i thk tat topic was discussed b4.
A few weeks back, me n my frens went 2 monash university 2 gather som info bout d courses available 4 nx yr. Apparently, 1 of my fren was tryin 2 b realistic 2 me n i really felt demotivated....... my mood was down n i cant concentr8 while drvin hom. I kno my facial expression wasn't happy at all but i was juz tryin 2 hide it so tat mum won't notice bout it. N 4 tat, i sms-ed another fren of mine 2 say tat i was sad. I thk she showed it 2 him. N he sms-ed me tis:


"Uh just wanna say i'm sry if i offended u juz nw. Sorry. I kno tat tis sry doesn't mean anythg but... i juz wanna say, sorry. *regret 4 wat i've said*"


OK, an apologise sms. But at tat point of time, i was really 2 depressed n i coudn't really accept tis! U kno, when ur upset bout sthg, nthg can go in2 ur mind n all ur tots wil b negative. So, yea, v "cold war" 4 a couple of days. Not even a word or a "hi" in college.
After a few days, i saw a stack of cards, "Secrets of the Millionaire Mind Cards" by T. Harv Eker, n it interests me a LOT (coz i m a money lover!). N i read 2 of d cards:


"Rich people take advice from people who are richer than they are. Poor people take advice from their friends, who are just as broke as they are."

AND

"If your motivation for acquiring money or success comes from a nonsupportive root such as fear, anger, or the need to prove yourself, your money will never bring you happiness. Practice coming from purpose and joy."

Hmm... I thought tat tis could b related 2 d situation i was in. Yea, these 2 quote hv certainly opened my mind. D 1st quote, sayin tat don take advices fr ppl whose thought n belief r diff fr u seriously bcoz it wil nt suit ur thking. While 4 d 2nd quote, don do sthg 2 prove how smart or how gd u r 2 others, but do it with joy. N d last thg, don b EGO. Previously, i hv 2 admit tat i was a bit 2 ego, bcoz in d 1st place, y shld i b d one 2 stat talkin?! he's wrong, so he shld b d initiator 2 stat talkin! ergh. N 4 tat, i could not concentr8 in my studies as d problem is not solved yet n i don feel comfortable with it...

Anyway, i started an on9 conversation n said tat i've decided 2 4giv him. N he said... ok?

D nx morning, me n mum went 4 breakfast n v were listening 2 lite fm. As i've said previously, d topic 4 discussion 4 d day was "Is it easy 2 4giv n 4get". N i remembered tat d psychologist said tat 2 4giv n 4get requires cooperation n negotiation between 2 parties, if 1 party has decided 2 4giv but d other party canot feel 4given, thn d conflict wil remain as a conflict. Wat an interesting fact. It not only involve 1 party 2 4giv d other 1, but d other party must also play a part 2 feel 4given. So, when i got back home, i started another on9 conversation with him again n ask him bout it. LOL. N...... everythg is over~~ =) I felt extraordinary happy tat day, coz all conflicts n problems r solved! It's like letting go a heavy stone fr my heart n i felt relieved! =]

Fr d whole situation, i feel tat God is treating me well. He knows when is d rite time 2 appear n help me. He knows i m struggling with tat problem, so he arranged a topic on d radio, he arranged mum 2 go out 4 br8fast with me so tat i could listen 2 d radio, he arranged a courage 4 me 2 solve tat problem, N tat problem is now solved! Thank God! =)
Tis is a pretty gd experience 4 me bcoz it helps me realise tat although somtimes v may face problems or obstacles when somthg else is on, but all v need 2 do is juz 2 b relaxed n thk of a solution. 4giv n 4get is certainly not an easy thg 2 do, but v must try our best 2 4giv som1 who has upset us so tat v could also feel better in life. ^_^

Cooking Spaghetti

2day, after psycho class, me, shiying n kassy went 2 USJ 1 Avenue for lunch, DIY lunch! B4 tat, v helped shiying 2 carry her thgs fr her hostel, n then oni v drove home.

V cooked 2 types of sauce - cheese n herbs and tuna+apple+raisin. Yum Yum... It was delicious!

After tat, v went down 2 d playround n hv FUN! LOL. V're like BIG KIDS playin there. Hopefully d security guard won't c it. It'll b quite embarassin if thy're luughin at us. XD

Then, v went back up 2 finish off our apple, as d sayin goes "an apple a day, m8s d doctor bankrupt"... haha. Shiying n kassy hv also made my fingers colorful after tat. But i was kinda "naughty" or "hyper", coz i move & laugh non stop! hahaha. so d results weren't tat nice... =P

At 6pm, i fetched thm back 2 college. Walau! V're trapped in d jam 4 bout 50 mins although it oni t8s 20 mins 2 reach college... Thn, i went back home! ^^

Hmm.. wat a nice day v had! Cookin our own lunch, playin at d pool n playin ground like a big kid, chit chattin here n there...... Stress relieved! Hopefully v'll hv d nx time soooon! ^_^

期待

Every time I hear d sound of d gate opening, I wil go near d window n peak at d gate, hopin it’ll b 1 of my parents comin b8. But, most of d time, it juz disappoint me. =( My heart wil b goin like “pls, pls, a BMW pls…” or now in kl, there’s 1 more door inside, so I’ll b hopin 2 c d door opening. But, most of d time, it juz disappoint me. =(


The feelin of a girl bein d oni child. Alone. At home. It couldn’t b described usin any simple words until u experience it by urself. Yea, mayb there r som advantages of bein d oni child, as parents wil pay more attention 2 their oni child … … But sometimes, thy’ll feel lonely as well, especially at times where thy’re alone at hom.


Durin primary sch, most of d parents wil com 2 visit their children with food durin recess time. N tat was 1 of my dreams at tat time. I oso wan homemade food in a lunchbox. It may not nd 2 hv “big fish big meat”, oni 2 simple dishes is enough. I juz wanna experience tat feeling… I thk it’ll b .

I don mean 2 expect thm 2 do everythg of wat their parents did. But I juz wan 2 try tat 1ce in a while. I juz wan 2 say tat tis is wat I’ve been wantin since young. Tis is wat I’ve been waitin 4 when I’m hom. Happily, I’ve experienced it tis yr! 4 1ce, mum let me brg fried rice 2 sch, in a lunch box with 3 partings. 4 1ce, mum wil b at hom, waitin 4 me with dinner. Tat’s was wat I wished durin d days actually. I kno she nd 2 work hard 2 sustain our life n its more difficult thn stayin at hom, cookin, sweepin… … N I’m not expectin tat everyday bcoz I kno she prefer workin out.

4 wat I’ve said, I wan 2 thank mum & dad, especially mum (ok, I m not tryin 2 b bias here). Raising up a child w/o a “him” is definitely not easy. N I kno u’ve been hopin 4 a life with 3 of us 2gether as a family. N now, v’re hvin it. I thk if it wasn’t u who has worked hard 4 it, v wouldn’t b hvin it now. I m proud of ur achievement. So, I would like 2 thank u 4 doin ur best 4 me n oso ur hard work 2 brg 3 of us 2gether under d same roof. I m very happy 2 hv our family back 2gether again. I’m sure e’re feelin tired bout it. I promise I wil play my part well n let u b proud of me 1 day in future! Love yah! ^_^

- You are the wind beneath my wings -

2nd Sem Results

Results for mock exam is out!!!!! OMG... i was so nervous bout it! The 1st subject tat i m gonna take is...... Accounts! Although i think i did well for it durin exam, but eventually, 1 of my fren told me tat i got 80+, n its a low 80. So, i was kinda dissapointed with it bcoz she told me durin my holidays! When i got d paper, i flipped fr d back.... Hmm... i did quite well wat, how com??? Until i flipped 2 d front pg, i saw "XX"! whoow! i was so happy. 1st time 4 d yr. scorin so high 4 acc! ^_^ Haha, but i managed 2 find an extra mark, so d marks bcame "XX+1"! muahahaha


Talkin bout d nx subj - psychology. 1 of my fren has also told me bout my marks durin my holidays. But, i kinda don believe 100%ly on him, bcoz i hvn seen it with my own eyes. =P I was also quite nervous when the lecturer was givin out d papers. I hv finally got my paper. d red ink was 2 dark n i can already c my marks w/o d need 2 flip 2 d nx pg. lol. at 1st i really thk its low, but whn d lecturer said d highest score 4 ausmat is "YY", thn i was quite happy with my achievement though. haha. XD


Movin on - Applics. OWH~~~ i knew i din do as well as EE 4 applics. I was panic after d poisson & exponential ques!!!!! arh!!!!! n as wat i predicted, i got "ZZ". S**T ar!!! my TER 99... gone! nthg much 2 talk bout tis, coz i m freaking sad with d mark! ergh


D last subj of my best 4 - EALD. Fr wat i remembered, I DID BADLY 4 IT! y? bcoz i thk my answers 4 comprehension r stupid n i dono wat d hvn hv i crapped?!! As 4 both writings, lack of time!!!!! I hv oni bout 50mins 4 my essay. n i thk i wrote 2 slow... its d last 5 mins n i hv 2 more paragraphs 2 go!!!!! tat's y i thk my essay S**KS!!!! when d lecturer called me out, i was like "ok, time 2 face d truth." Unexpectedly, she said i did well 4 d paper! [facial expression turned fr =( to =)] haha. She said she liked d way i hv written both essays n  oni need 2 work harder on listening. hahaha. i really din expect 2 get high marks 4 EALD. HAPPY!