I just dont know whether i should look at it positively or negatively. But i just feel that since step no 1, i wasnt supposed to be here. Those obstacles made me think that God doesnt want me to make this decision at all... But if you are positive enough, u might think that this is a challenge that God wants u to take up so that u can be a more confident and stronger person in future.
I just can't be positive at this time. But i guess i still need to accept it as that's the decision I, or we (i should say), have made. I can't tell them my actual feelings, i need to cover it by the smile on my face, i need to conceal it by pretending nothing bad ever happened on me. This is such a pain... I can't even concentrate well on what i am supposed to do now! It's like hope is there, but after some time, it becomes dissapointment; and u feel that there is hope again, and there comes dissapointment again, again and again... This is a never ending story.
I just feel that this place is not for me. Loads of unlucky things to handle and its pissing me off! I know i am not supposed to complain or what so ever, but that's really how i feel. Maybe i should take it positively, but i just can't! Those things are just causing more stress to me and i don't wanna cope with it anymore.
Just hope that all this will end soon. I really wanna concentrate on other valuable things rather than this POS!
28 March 2012
08 November 2011
20th birthday celebration in HK!
OMG. I haven't been updating my blog for years! :O So, i would like to post something that would definitely be memorable about my stay in HK.
3rd Nov (Thurs, last week) was my birthday. My floor mates and friends have been organising a surprise birthday party for me secretly. On 2nd Nov at 11:52pm, a friend (R) called me and asked me to return her the belt i borrowed previously at the hall lobby. I was already half asleep that time, but i still managed to get up and take her belt down. When i went down to the lobby, 2 friends were waiting for me, and i saw a group of familiar people doing something at the lawn. The 2 friends chat with me for a while and then brought me to the lawn, followed by other friends singing birthday song! :) And i found out that another friend (N) was born on the same day as me! :)) I was so surprised by the celebration.
And then, at 00:06am, my room mate (P) called me and asked me where am i. I told her that i am celebrating my birthday at the lawn. She said she left her key in the room and needs to go to the toilet, and toilet mates weren't in the room. So, i have to bring the key up for her. She was standing in "pain" at the common room. So, i walked with her to the room. When i open the door, a group of people were inside the room and started singing birthday song. Whow! This is surprise no. 2! :) They are my lovely floor mates. I didn't thought that they will celebrate my birthday... Thanks to my room mate. <3
On that day, my floor mates brought me to Temple Street for dinner and desserts at night. Really thank them for making my birthday a wonderful one! :D
3rd Nov (Thurs, last week) was my birthday. My floor mates and friends have been organising a surprise birthday party for me secretly. On 2nd Nov at 11:52pm, a friend (R) called me and asked me to return her the belt i borrowed previously at the hall lobby. I was already half asleep that time, but i still managed to get up and take her belt down. When i went down to the lobby, 2 friends were waiting for me, and i saw a group of familiar people doing something at the lawn. The 2 friends chat with me for a while and then brought me to the lawn, followed by other friends singing birthday song! :) And i found out that another friend (N) was born on the same day as me! :)) I was so surprised by the celebration.
Celebration 1 with Malaysian friends.
And then, at 00:06am, my room mate (P) called me and asked me where am i. I told her that i am celebrating my birthday at the lawn. She said she left her key in the room and needs to go to the toilet, and toilet mates weren't in the room. So, i have to bring the key up for her. She was standing in "pain" at the common room. So, i walked with her to the room. When i open the door, a group of people were inside the room and started singing birthday song. Whow! This is surprise no. 2! :) They are my lovely floor mates. I didn't thought that they will celebrate my birthday... Thanks to my room mate. <3
On that day, my floor mates brought me to Temple Street for dinner and desserts at night. Really thank them for making my birthday a wonderful one! :D
Celebration 2 with floor mates.
23 June 2011
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I can't believe i am the ugliest person in the world!!!
Well, u know, we girls often have pimples when we are stressing for assignments and exams, especially during that period every once a month... So my face is full of pimples during exams and after exams, maybe due to lack of sleep. So i was very upset about it. I quickly went and do facial after my exam, hoping my face will be as beautiful as before... HOWEVER, the next day when i woke up, my face is even worse! OMG! This is so unbelievable!!! I looked into the mirror and saw the ugliest person in the world!!! T_T Seriously, i was very very sad. The longer i look into the mirror, the more i feel like crying. And finally, i cried........................... T_____T I really feel like URH, dieing~
I was planning to go out with my friends for skating. So at least i felt better when being with them... But i cried again once i reached home. T_____T Mum asked me to accept who i am and be confident on myself. Well, it is easy to say but difficult to do. I will try~~
Anyway, glad that my face looks better now in penang. Haha. XD
Well, u know, we girls often have pimples when we are stressing for assignments and exams, especially during that period every once a month... So my face is full of pimples during exams and after exams, maybe due to lack of sleep. So i was very upset about it. I quickly went and do facial after my exam, hoping my face will be as beautiful as before... HOWEVER, the next day when i woke up, my face is even worse! OMG! This is so unbelievable!!! I looked into the mirror and saw the ugliest person in the world!!! T_T Seriously, i was very very sad. The longer i look into the mirror, the more i feel like crying. And finally, i cried........................... T_____T I really feel like URH, dieing~
I was planning to go out with my friends for skating. So at least i felt better when being with them... But i cried again once i reached home. T_____T Mum asked me to accept who i am and be confident on myself. Well, it is easy to say but difficult to do. I will try~~
Anyway, glad that my face looks better now in penang. Haha. XD
07 April 2011
The pain of waiting... yields excitement!!!
July 2010
I decided to apply for the international student exchange program with University of Hong Kong. So, i started my research on it, eg. course offered, living cost, accommodation... And it took me nearly 4 months to get everything done!
November 2010
Finally, i have all documents with me and i submitted the application form together with the documents needed to the course management office for approval of subjects.
February 2011
I received an email from the Monash course management office, stating that my subjects have been approved. And they will now send my application to Monash Australia for them to approve my application and nominate me to the host university.
March 2011
I received an email from Monash Australia Study Abroad, mentioning that they have approved my application, and will now nominate me to exchange to my preferred host university. I applied to both HKU and CityU. They listed my preference as CityU.
Early April 2011
I received an email from CityU. They asked me to fill in the application form to exchange to their university and attach all my documents together and send it over to them before May. I told my mum about it, she seemed to be disappointing for me not getting into HKU in the beginning. But she kept on doing research about the benefits of CityU so that she could be a bit happier. However, it seems that it is not 100% confirm that i will be going to CityU.
The next day, i receive another email from Monash Australia Study Abroad, saying that i shall complete all the application from online, print them out, and hand them in to the representative in Malaysia so that they could help me with the process. And there was one sentence in the email, saying that "The host university is not liable to accept your application during this time. Once they receive all documents, they will process your application and inform you on the acceptance. This process could take 2 weeks to 2 months."
So, what it means? It means that i have to fill in forms and be more patient to wait for another email. Pray hard that i will be accepted! :)
Mid April 2011
Just handed in the application form and other supporting documents to Selwyn, the Monash Abroad Coordinator, where he will post it for me to the host university. Thanks Selwyn and im waiting for your good news. :D
Late April 2011
Received an email from Monash Abroad and Selwyn, saying that i was successful in nomination and selection to go for the exchange in HK. Weee~ So happy! :) But they do say that it is only 100% confirm when i receive a tangible offer letter and student visa from HK... *pray hard* I am supposed to also attend a briefing session next week for more information regarding the exchange. Offer letter mari mari mari!! XD
Early May 2011
Attended the student exchange briefing session with Selwyn. He gave us information on the exchange and clear our doubts. Found out that among all the students participating in this program, only 9% are males! XD Women are dominating... Anyway, we filled in the forms, again, for the travel grant and the session ends. He has also told us that usually students who have been nominated is successful in getting a place in the exchange program. Hope so!!!
Late May 2011
Wahooo!!! I have finally received my letter of acceptance from CUHK! :D:D:D Hong Kong, Im coming!!!
Early June 2011
My tangible letter of acceptance is in hand! ;D
I decided to apply for the international student exchange program with University of Hong Kong. So, i started my research on it, eg. course offered, living cost, accommodation... And it took me nearly 4 months to get everything done!
November 2010
Finally, i have all documents with me and i submitted the application form together with the documents needed to the course management office for approval of subjects.
February 2011
I received an email from the Monash course management office, stating that my subjects have been approved. And they will now send my application to Monash Australia for them to approve my application and nominate me to the host university.
March 2011
I received an email from Monash Australia Study Abroad, mentioning that they have approved my application, and will now nominate me to exchange to my preferred host university. I applied to both HKU and CityU. They listed my preference as CityU.
Early April 2011
I received an email from CityU. They asked me to fill in the application form to exchange to their university and attach all my documents together and send it over to them before May. I told my mum about it, she seemed to be disappointing for me not getting into HKU in the beginning. But she kept on doing research about the benefits of CityU so that she could be a bit happier. However, it seems that it is not 100% confirm that i will be going to CityU.
The next day, i receive another email from Monash Australia Study Abroad, saying that i shall complete all the application from online, print them out, and hand them in to the representative in Malaysia so that they could help me with the process. And there was one sentence in the email, saying that "The host university is not liable to accept your application during this time. Once they receive all documents, they will process your application and inform you on the acceptance. This process could take 2 weeks to 2 months."
So, what it means? It means that i have to fill in forms and be more patient to wait for another email. Pray hard that i will be accepted! :)
Mid April 2011
Just handed in the application form and other supporting documents to Selwyn, the Monash Abroad Coordinator, where he will post it for me to the host university. Thanks Selwyn and im waiting for your good news. :D
Late April 2011
Received an email from Monash Abroad and Selwyn, saying that i was successful in nomination and selection to go for the exchange in HK. Weee~ So happy! :) But they do say that it is only 100% confirm when i receive a tangible offer letter and student visa from HK... *pray hard* I am supposed to also attend a briefing session next week for more information regarding the exchange. Offer letter mari mari mari!! XD
Early May 2011
Attended the student exchange briefing session with Selwyn. He gave us information on the exchange and clear our doubts. Found out that among all the students participating in this program, only 9% are males! XD Women are dominating... Anyway, we filled in the forms, again, for the travel grant and the session ends. He has also told us that usually students who have been nominated is successful in getting a place in the exchange program. Hope so!!!
Late May 2011
Wahooo!!! I have finally received my letter of acceptance from CUHK! :D:D:D Hong Kong, Im coming!!!
Early June 2011
My tangible letter of acceptance is in hand! ;D
03 January 2011
彻望
在这里只想抒发我对你近日的感想。只能说，我对你彻底失望！以前都不是如此无交代，每当我有事相求，你都在所不辞，愿意抽出宝贵的时间予我。但是这次，你却连短短几秒也不愿给我。或许你是真的有心无力，但只怕你是有力无心... 希望我的想法是错误，要不我真的很失望。我曾经是你为知己，认为你是一个我值得交往、相信、谈心的朋友。如今竟然到了这个地步，我真的有点伤心。虽然你阅读这篇文章的几率算少，但我心里还是蛮希望你有机会读到，然后知道我对你的感想。
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